Yesterday, as I was going through my vsco cam, I saw this caption and all the "things would be better if" thoughts fell to sleep. I almost forgot how far I've come and that made me question why gratitude is a difficult thing. The grass is not greener on the other side. It is our discontent, and false impression of the other side that makes us think so and man are we all guilty of this. My guess is, it is our nature as humans.
Almost every day of this year, I found myself thinking about when I would get to the other side of the fence and stand with everyone else on greener grass. Most of my prayers were answered, some later than I expected, others in ways I still can't believe but I still find myself longing for greener grass. There are days when I slowly find myself falling into the why-is-this-the-way it is trap when I should be happier than ever before. When I should be grateful. When, again I should be extremely grateful.
I've learned more lessons this year than any year or maybe all nineteen years but the most important one, I am still struggling with. Gratitude. Gratitude is what makes things right even when it's clear they are going so so wrong. Gratitude is what rekindles hope and gratitude is what keeps your faith burning. Gratitude is what gets you through the daunting, excruciating and probably one of the world's worst pains - having to wait. Gratitude is what fuels patience. Gratitude reminds us of better days, past and those ahead.
On new year's, when I declared 2016 as my year of thanks, I didn't know what that meant. My prayer was heard and indeed, it is my year of thanks as it has all been so that in everything, every day, I may give thanks. It's not coincidence that I am learning about gratitude in my year of thanks, is it? I have learned that where I stand is my greener grass, and in drought, in it's browning and when it's greener now than yesterday, the grass on the other side is not mine. I am always standing on greener grass, and for that, I am more than grateful.